I dedicate my life to being all that I can be - to ‘following my bliss’. This includes doing and developing the skills and talents I have to the fullest and, more often than not, involves taking risks or ‘Living Dangerously’. There is a chance that it could turn out very badly for me. I could lose everything.
I don’t think I’m being melodramatic. I haven’t got the money to pay last month’s rent, let alone the month that is due in a few days. (Some of you reading this might be thinking, “Get a job”. Here’s the thing...)
I write books. I am currently writing one now... my third, in fact. This takes a lot of time, focus and energy, is a lot more glamorous than it sounds and doesn't pay at all well, but I do it because I love doing it. I have learned in life that I usually do a pretty good job of things, when it comes to doing what I enjoy. My dad once told me, “Do what you want, as long as it makes you happy”. Hence I've always done pretty much what I love to do through self-employment.
After leaving college the first thing I did, aged 20, was set up a screen-printing business (called ‘Pixieprint’ in Walcot St., Bath). Four years later, I’d had enough of putting so much energy into something with it not financially working out. I have since focused my attentions on music and songwriting, designing cards, making crafts, raising children, writing books, making more music, organising ARC Conventions... and often doing most of the above at once.
Speaking of the ARC Convention - this year’s ARC is due to take place on the 3rd and 4th March... in a little over two weeks. I currently face the difficult situation of deciding whether or not to cancel an event I am both hugely excited about and have put a lot of time/energy into organising. This is because not enough people have bought tickets. Huge thanks to every one of you so far who have, but more people need to pledge their support if I am to break even. This is an important event that I feel makes a difference in the world. This is my contribution to consciousness... I put my time, energy, love, sweat, tears... my all into finding brilliant speakers; for us all to share knowledge and inspire one another, make friendships, laugh and enjoy a community of conscious souls.
I know that times are hard for many of us at the moment. Why is this? What is stopping us from having the free will to do exactly what we want to do in life at any given moment? Is it simply that it’s usually down to lack of funds?
I am contemplating this on deep levels. What is the point of my life if not to do what gives me joy? I know that the answer to that is that I am here to experience. Maybe that is all and some of us have ‘drawn the short straw’ to greater and lesser degrees. Don’t assume I’m not thankful for all the good in my life – and there is SO much and I’m thankful every day for that. It could be worse, but I refuse to adopt the ever-so-British tradition of the ‘stiff upper-lip’... mine is quivering and I’m not ashamed to admit it.
So by Monday, folks... will there be an ARC in 2012? I will lose money by cancelling now, but not as much as I would do by going ahead with this and not enough people turning up.
Until then, please do all you can to support ARC by buying a ticket and spreading the word. It will make a difference.
Share the info on Twitter using tag #ARC2012, share the YouTube video below, or the event web page where you can find out all you need to know and buy tickets: www.arcconvention.org/ARC2012.html
Many thanks in advance,